Rejoice!

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This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. – Psalm 118:24 (KJV)

Be glad!  The Lord God is your Heavenly Father.  He is not some theological construct.  Not an idea.  He is very real – the One Eternal Designer, Creator and Sustainer of All.

Including you.

God our Father is not only real, He is personal.  Jesus called Him Abba, which roughly translates to “papa”.  Our Father made a way by faith in and through Jesus Christ for you to be His child.

And God loves you.  That’s not some lofty ideal but the absolute truth. God sent His Son to die for you.

God loves you.  God cares for you.  God is with you.  Let Him be your comfort.  Find your joy in Him.  Go to the Lord with all your troubles and needs.  Trust in Him.  Stay in tHis Word.  Follow His voice.  

Rejoice in the Lord always!  Let His grace and mercy and love pour over you. Live in peace.  And be glad!!

Rest in Jesus and sleep well tonight.  There’s no fear in God.

We’ve Added On!

A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones. – Proverbs 17:22 [KJV]

I’ve wanted to do this for a long time.

I’ve prayed.

I’ve wrestled.

I’ve started.

I’ve stopped.

I’ve fussed and fidgeted and wrangled and thought and thought and thought…

You get the picture.

You see, for a long time, I’ve wanted to write a humor blog.  Something to make people smile, laugh, chortle, until milk comes out their noses.  I really enjoy making people laugh, bringing them a reason to chuckle.

The problem has been a question of balance.  How do I balance ministry and humor?  What if the Humorist overtakes the Diarist?  What if, by being comical, I lose street cred?  What will the Old Time Religionists say?

Then it dawned on me.  What a hypocritical moron am I?  Street cred – what on earth?  Where did that come from?  And since when did I care one bit what the religious-at-heart think of me?  Who am I to write about not having fear while being afraid of what others might think?

The truth is, this is me.  I am an armchair theologist.  I am an encourager.  I am a teacher.  And I am a humorist.

And I need to use all of these gifts.  Otherwise they go to waste.  And isn’t it a slap in the face of God Almighty not to put the gifts He’s given each of us to good use?

Besides, it occurred to me while trying to find a comedy special on TV that wasn’t oozing with profanity and “f”-bombs that there’s no reason the devil should have all the laughs.  God created humor.  I want to use it for good.

For now, the Bouville Humorist will only be available on Facebook.  Eventually it will be expanded to WordPress and Twitter and other outlets.

The first post is out there.  Please find The Bouville Humorist on Facebook (@bouvillehumorist).  And please let me know what you think.  (Not that I’m pandering for approval, mind you.  But a bunch of “likes” and “follows” never hurt anybody right?)

And, don’t worry.  The Bouville Diarist isn’t going away.

Street cred.  Seriously…

Surely God Was With Him

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“Christianity is not about building an absolutely secure little niche in the world where you can live with your perfect little wife and your perfect little children in a beautiful little house where you have no gays or minority groups anywhere near you. Christianity is about learning to love like Jesus loved and Jesus loved the poor and Jesus loved the broken-hearted.” – Rich Mullins at Carpenter’s Way Christian Church, Lufkin TX, 19 July 1997

“I went to an older Protestant gentleman that I’ve respected for years and years, and I asked him, “When does faithfulness to Jesus call us to lay aside our biases and when does it call us to stand beside them?” His answer to me was that it is not about being Catholic or Protestant. It is about being faithful to Jesus. The issue is not about which church you go to, it is about following Jesus where He leads you.” – Radio interview with Artie Terry, “The Exchange,” WETN, Wheaton, Ill., April 1997, quoted in An Arrow Pointing to Heaven, James Bryan Smith, p54

Twenty-two years ago this past Thursday, we lost an artist and ragamuffin who set religious conventions aside and left Indiana to follow Jesus Christ, to seek Him with his whole heart.  I am grateful Rich Mullins came along and so openly shared his very personal journey with all who would listen.

Think today I’ll dig out my copy of The Jesus Record and sing my praise to the Lord!

Her Long Brown Hair (or The Greatest Expectation)

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She had long, brown hair.

I know she had long, brown hair.

And, when I go out to eat at American-style restaurants, I like to order meatloaf.

Meatloaf rocks.  And I am very particular about my meatloaf.  With one exception, it has to be topped with ketchup.  Not brown gravy.

Never brown gravy.

If a politician wants my vote, he or she will promise, if elected, to ban slathering meatloaf with brown gravy.  (And, here comes the one exception I mentioned earlier: Clive’s Roadhouse serves up a mean meatloaf with onion straws, mashed potatoes and brown gravy that will make the hardest construction worker well up with tears of gratitude after one bite.)

Here’s something else that never belongs on meatloaf.

Hair.

This is how I know the chef had long brown hair.  I took a bite of what had previously been delicious meatloaf, only to end up extracting from my mouth a roughly 8-inch long brown hair which had somehow broke free from it’s follicle and landed in my lunch.

I had expected ground beef, mixed with egg, onions and bread crumbs and baked to juicy perfection.

I had expected wonderfully carmelized ketchup baked on top.

I had not expected to need to almost eat a hair nearly as long as my forearm.

Nor had I expected the confirmation that my gag reflex worked just fine.

We sometimes build up amazing – unrealistic – expectations about life.  We were taught at an early age that, here in America, we could grow up to be anything we wanted to be.  Even president!

But, the truth is, we can be anything God wants us to be.  As the Lord promised His children:

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope” (Jeremiah 29:11, ESV).

We have dreams.  Make plans.  Set goals.  Sometimes they turn out.  Sometimes they don’t.  And, when our plans blow up in our faces, it can be very discouraging to say the least.

But, as Christians, our agenda isn’t supposed to be our agenda.  It’s God’s.

We should be pursuing His will.  Seeking His guidance.  Trusting in His grace and mercy.  Sharing His love.

Am I saying we shouldn’t dream or plan or set goals?  Absolutely not!  By all means we should plan and work to achieve.  What we shouldn’t do is get so wound up in our own schemes and desires that they become what we desire over God Himself.

Jesus should be our first, overarching goal in life.

As Christ pointed out, He is our only sure expectation:

“In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33 (ESV)

To quote 18th century poet Alexander Pope, “Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed.”  Granted, that sounds a tad depressing.  But not when we realize GOD is our hope.

Our only hope.

It isn’t that we’ve lost hope and now God is our last resort.  He’s the only true hope we’ve ever had!

So, here’s my challenge to all of you.  Do a quick heart check.  Are you more concerned with success or seeking the Lord?  Where is your treasure?  Is it in your bank account?  Your personal goals?  Achievements? Or is your heart set on following Jesus?

19 “Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, 20 but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” – Matthew 6:19-21 (ESV)

It’s no accident that, immediately after this passage, Jesus begins teaching us not to worry.  To trust God with all our needs.  To not toil for that which has no eternal value.

Expect God.  Seek Him.  Wait patiently on Him.  Let the LORD be your expectation.

Of course, you shouldn’t have to expect a long hair (brown or otherwise) in your meatloaf.  But maybe – just maybe – I need to ease up on the brown gravy issue.

(c) 2019 by Chris Courtney.  All rights reserved.

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How Was Your Day? (Or Count Your Many Blessings)

by Chris Courtney

There are certain, open-ended questions we should never ask.

Never ask someone, “How are you doing?”  All you do is open the door for a potentially  insincere (if not entirely honest) “Ok”.  Ask instead a more direct questions (How are things at work?  How is your mom?  How’s your health?  How have the [insert name of favorite sports team here] let you down this season?)

Never ask “Where is your faith?”  Seriously.  Never ever.  It’s a slap in the face of a struggling believer.

And never ask, “How was your day?”  Unless you want to open the floodgates of complaining and grumbling (“It was awful!  The boss yelled at me.  My husband complained about the Egg-and-Dairy-Free Tofu Kale Omelet I made for dinner.  My youngest drew a moustache on his sister’s face while she was sleeing – with a black permanent marker, which doesn’t even match her blonde hair.  And the cat destroyed my Bobby Goldsboro album [don’t even ask me how!]”)

Etc.

Etc.

And so on.

As with most things in life, there are two views: our skewed perception, and the right view.

God’s view.

You see, God’s goodness bathes our lives with His grace, hope, love and mercy at all times.  Even when we can’t feel it.

When we can’t see it.

When we can’t perceive it.

When we question whether He hears our prayers, or stays with us, or even cares.

Let’s look at the 103rd Psalm:

1 Bless the Lord, O my soul,
    and all that is within me,
    bless his holy name!
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
    and forget not all his benefits,
who forgives all your iniquity,
    who heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit,
    who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,
who satisfies you with good
    so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

The Lord works righteousness
    and justice for all who are oppressed.
He made known his ways to Moses,
    his acts to the people of Israel.
The Lord is merciful and gracious,
    slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
He will not always chide,
    nor will he keep his anger forever.
10 He does not deal with us according to our sins,
    nor repay us according to our iniquities.
11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
    so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him;
12 as far as the east is from the west,
    so far does he remove our transgressions from us.
13 As a father shows compassion to his children,
    so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear him.
14 For he knows our frame;[a]
    he remembers that we are dust.

15 As for man, his days are like grass;
    he flourishes like a flower of the field;
16 for the wind passes over it, and it is gone,
    and its place knows it no more.
17 But the steadfast love of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear him,
    and his righteousness to children’s children,
18 to those who keep his covenant
    and remember to do his commandments.
19 The Lord has established his throne in the heavens,
    and his kingdom rules over all.

20 Bless the Lord, O you his angels,
    you mighty ones who do his word,
    obeying the voice of his word!
21 Bless the Lord, all his hosts,
    his ministers, who do his will!
22 Bless the Lord, all his works,
    in all places of his dominion.
Bless the Lord, O my soul! – Psalm 103 [ESV]

 

As believers, we are each the recipient of many, many great and wonderful blessings from our Heavenly Father.  Shall we count our many blessings?  According to to the above Psalm of David:

  1. We are forgiven of all our sins – our transgressions removed from us “as far as the east is from the west”
  2. We are healed of all our ailments
  3. We are redeemed from the hell sin provides, and given new life with Him
  4.  We are “crowned” with God’s never bending, never ending love and mercy
  5.  We are fulfilled by His goodness and revitalized
  6.  We are the beneficiaries of His justice and righteousness
  7.  We are blessed by God Who made His ways known to His people
  8.  We are the recipients of amazing grace and mercy from God Who chooses to be “slow to anger” rather than wrathful (a wrath we deserve through our sin, but are forgiven through His “steadfast love”)
  9.  We are treated with compassion by our Lord – just as a father has compassion for his children
  10.  We are known – in astoundingly minute detail – by our Father God Who created us.  Think about that one for just a moment.  God knows your weaknesses.  He knows your gifts.  He knows everything about you.  He has placed you in His great plan.
  11.  We are given eternal life through Him (through Jesus) – “from everlasting to everlasting”.  We are rescued from the brevity and pain of life ib this material world.
  12.  All of this is the loving, gracious, merciful gift of God Who is Lord over all.

David and many of the Old Testament saints figured out the secret to life.  Are you ready?  Here it is:

You have to take it on faith.

You have to take God at His Word.

You have to trust that what He promises will come to pass.

And, understand this:

13 These all died in faith, not having received the things promised, but having seen them and greeted them from afar, and having acknowledged that they were strangers and exiles on the earth. 14 For people who speak thus make it clear that they are seeking a homeland. 15 If they had been thinking of that land from which they had gone out, they would have had opportunity to return. 16 But as it is, they desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared for them a city. – Hebrews 11:13-16 [ESV]

This world is not what’s important.  It isn’t where our hearts should yearn for.  This place isn’t home.

It just isn’t.

I know not every illness gets healed on this earth.  I also know God can heal any disease.  He can also work through us to exemplify His grace, mercy and love to others.

Despite what we perceive, we need to keep our eyes on the prize, as Paul says.  Keep believing.  But keep a heavenly perspective.  It’s like my beautiful wife Jennifer likes to remind me when I’m feeling hopeless or down: will what’s got you bugged matter in a week?  A month?  A year?  A decade?  Most likely not.

Please know this: God is always with you.  He will work through those who love Him.  He will bring great things to pass.  We just have to keep faith, worship and praise the God Who so loves us and fills us.  Count your many blessings.

Name them one by one.

And see what God has done.

He lights your darkest path.

He fills your every longing.

Just look for Him.

See that our daily troubles and cares and worries are nothing compared to the greatness of our Father in Heaven.  Sometimes we just have to ask: what is important?  What does God treasure?

Now… knowing all this, let me ask you again.  How was your day?

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The Midweek Push: Whatsamottoyou?

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The United States of America: 50 states, 5 territories and a federal capitol district, each (well, most of them) with their own state / territorial motto.

Some of them are fiery, a reflection of the revolution that bore our country (Sic Semper Tyranus, or “Thus always to tyrants” [Virginia]; “Live free or die!” [New Hampshire]).

Others are a bit strange, certain to mean something to the locals but just odd-sounding without proper context (“John is his name” [Puerto Rico]; “By and by” [Washington]).

598px-2002_IN_ProofMy home state is the “Crossroads of America.”  (A shout out to my fellow Hoosiers!)

But my favorites are the inspirational mottos.

“God enriches” (Arizona).

“Samoa, let God be first” (American Samoa).

And, best of all, Ohio’s motto.  They went straight to the Bible for theirs: “With God all things are possible”.  Right from Matthew 19:26.  Verbatim.

It’s a beautiful motto to live by.

It’s a wonderful truth to cling to.

Here’s the bad news: we can do nothing on our own.  We are utterly reliant on God.

And, here’s the good news: we can do nothing on our own.  We are utterly reliant on God.

And God, our Heavenly Father loves us.  Cares for us.  Forgives us.  Sets our paths straight.

He knows our needs.  He hears our prayers.  When God seems silent, He’s not.  He’s working on our behalf.  He’s taking care of all the details.

And, when God’s timing is right… wow!  Be ready.  The LORD may move in ways beyond your dreams, beyond your expectations.  There is nothing beyond His ability.  Nobody beyond His grasp.  Nowhere He can’t reach you.  No one He cannot save.  No situation He cannot repair.

With God, nothing – nothing – is impossible.  Now that is a motto to live by.  Even better than Si quaeris peninsulam amoenam circumspice: If you seek a pleasant peninsula, look about you (Michigan).

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May I See Your ID?

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I like the Kendrick Brothers movies.  They may be a bit corny but I always leave with something to think about.

Seeing their latest flick, Overcomer, was no different,  One of the overarching themes throughout the film is identity: who are we really?

Let me start with who we are not.

We are not helpless.

We are not hopeless.

We are not the sum of our failures.

We are not bullies teased us for allegedly being.

We are not the sins we have committed, the wrongs we have done.

We are not defined by our past glories – or pit falls.

We are not our job titles.

We are neither our accomplishments nor our misfires.

We are not anything definable in strictly human terms.

You see, we were each born with a purpose: to glorify and worship God.

We were born with a purpose, for a reason.

So… who are we?  The Kendrick brothers take us through Ephesians 1 and 2.  Here we find exactly who we are, as described by our Creator, Who formed and knitted together each of us in our mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13).

That’s right.  Each of us was designed and put together individually by God, our Father, Who is Love.  Each and every human being is God’s unique creation.  Each of us has a purpose.

That means no one is useless.  No one is beyond hope.  No one is unlovable or unloved.

Take a few minutes, grab a Bible and a pen (and notebook).  Turn to Ephesians 1 and 2.  Prayerfully read the Word of God and joy down all the things He says we are in His name.

Then go back and read your list.

Then re-read it.

Let the Lord’s words sink into your mind and soak into your soul.  Understand He is talking to you.  Not just the apostle Paul.  Not some other Christians.  But YOU.

If you’d like prayer through this exercise, please e-mail me at bouvillediarist@gmail.com.

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Finally, please remember to love others, and know how much God loves you!  He did, after all, send His Son Jesus to die for us.

For you.

 

 

 

 

 

The Midweek Push: Do Not Fear the Heat

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose trust is the LORD. He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for its leaves remain green, and is not anxious in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit.” – Jeremiah 7:7-8 [ESV]

Life gets rough. Circumstances come, sometimes through our own foolishness or failures; other times through no fault of our own, but simply because we live in a sinful, imperfect world.

But the LORD wants us to keep our gaze fixed on Him, not our circumstances.  Troubles come and go.  Problems rise and fall.

But God… He never changes.  He is the one trustworthy constant we have.

And the LORD says don’t worry.  Don’t sit and stew over circumstances.  Instead, pray.  Look to God.  Wait expectantly on the LORD.  He has a plan.  He will move when His time right.  And He will use whatever you’re facing to grow you stronger.

Think about Peter, walking across the Sea of Galilee in the midst of a raging storm.  He was walking to Christ and, as long as Peter kept his eyes on Jesus, he stayed upright.

But as soon as Peter switched his attention from the LORD to the storm, he started to drown.

And yet, who saved Peter?  That’s right: Jesus.

When the heat is on, and life looks bleak, don’t look at your troubles.  Look to God.  Fix your gaze on the One Who saved you, Who never eaves or abandon you,  Who sees you through every trial.

Tell God your troubles.  Ask for His help and guidance.  Keep the faith and trust that He’s going to do what needs to be done in His time.

And, until then, He will sustain and carry you.  God is your Father.  And He loves you beyond comprehension!

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Cave Dweller

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Caves.  They’re dark.  They’re wet.  They’re cold.  They’re a haven for bats and – if Monty Python are to be believed – at least one killer rabbit.

However, caves can also make great hiding places.  David and his followers holed up in a cave.  So did Lot.  Obadiah hid 100 prophets in two caves (fifty per).  The Dead Sea Scrolls were found hidden in caves around Qumran.

Caves make good hiding places.

And there are times a-plenty I have wished I had a cave to flee to.  What did I want to flee?  My anxiety.  My worries.  My troubles.

Chances are pretty good you’ve had times when a remote cave sounded pretty appealing.

However, running from our problems never solved anything.  God sent a prophet to David telling him to get out and face his enemy.  As unpleasant as it may seem, facing our fears, worries and doubts are far better for us than hiding from them.

When we’re feeling anxious or worried, when doubts start to creep in, here are a few reminders from our loving God to help us stand tall and be strong in our faith:

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. – Joshua 1:9 [ESV]

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. 34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. – Matthew 6:25-34 [ESV]

16 Who rises up for me against the wicked?
    Who stands up for me against evildoers?
17 If the Lord had not been my help,
    my soul would soon have lived in the land of silence.
18 When I thought, “My foot slips,”
    your steadfast love, O Lord, held me up.
19 When the cares of my heart are many,
    your consolations cheer my soul.
20 Can wicked rulers be allied with you,
    those who frame injustice by statute?
21 They band together against the life of the righteous
    and condemn the innocent to death.
22 But the Lord has become my stronghold,
    and my God the rock of my refuge.
23 He will bring back on them their iniquity
    and wipe them out for their wickedness;
    the Lord our God will wipe them out. – Psalm 94:16-23 [ESV]

Out of my distress I called on the Lord;
    the Lord answered me and set me free.
The Lord is on my side; I will not fear.
    What can man do to me?
The Lord is on my side as my helper;
    I shall look in triumph on those who hate me. – Psalm 118:5-7 [ESV]

Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. – 1 Peter 5:6-7 [ESV]

So seek the Lord first.  Trust in Jesus.  Step out of your cave in faith and put everything in His capable, loving hands.

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A Very Special Bouville Diarist

Cringe.

That’s what I did every time I saw a TV ad for a “very special episode” of some ’80s sitcom.

I cringed because I knew “very special” meant some overly dramatic turn of plot designed to boost ratings by hooking you in with the travails of one of their characters.

“This week, on a very special episode of M*A*S*H, Colonel Blake returns from the dead to donate his spleen to Radar, who discovers he was born without one.”

“On a very special Alf, America’s favorite intergalactic puppet deals with discovering that he is really a laboratory-created cross between a cat and an opossum.”

“On tonight’s very special Family Ties, Alex has to face his family with the revelation that he is actually a closet liberal.  Guest star: Alan Alda as the wacky yet wise psychoanalyst Dr. Doug “Dewey” Hackmeyer who helps the Keaton family adjust.”

You get the drift.

I’m calling this “a very special” Bouville Diarist with much trepidation, because I’m ging to get personal.  And sometimes people react negatively to “personal”.  They get uncomfortable.  Squirm in their seats.

Cringe.

I don’t believe this post is going to be cringeworthy, so relax.  No uncomfortable revelations.  Just some good ol’ heart-to-heart.

You may have noticed an uptick in posts very recently.  It may seem odd: the Bouville blog has sat fairly dormant for so long.  Like a volcano, it sits quietly, occasionally puffs out some smoke or drools a bit of molten magma now and again.

Then, one day… BOOM!  Eruption.  Post after post.

What’s going on?

A personal wake up call, that’s what’s going on.

Consistency has never been my bag.  I’ve always allowed my biggest enemy – my inner critic – to get in my way.  I write and then I read and edit (not enough admittedly, but…).  And then I imagine the few who read the Bouville Diarist turning off their computers.

Checking Facebook.

Beginning to… you guessed it…

Cringe.

Is this true?  I doubt it.  I hope not.  It’s what I hear from my inner critic.

I understand the inner critic is not my friend.  He doesn’t want me to minister.  He doesn’t want me to succeed at what I believe the Lord wants me to do.

Here is what I want to do,

I want to write.

I want to draw.

I want to be free of the inner critic.

I want to do these things to God’s glory, which means blessing others with what I produce.

I want to start small groups for God.

I want to disciple people.

I want to bring freedom and peace and joy to those who struggle with despression and anxiety and all the awful mental tar that sticks some of us in such a miserable place.

I want you to feel joyful.

I want you to be peaceful.

I want you to know God’s great love.

I want you to not feel alone.

But I cannot do that until I shut up that [deleted] inner critic.

And that is what I intend to do.

So… am I doing this for purely selfless reasons?  Yes and no.  I am human.  I will relish in the joy of reaching out and trying to bless people.

I want more of what God has intended for me.

Don’t you?

I won’t be intentionally rude or shocking, but I won’t be politically correct either.

I will trip and falter and fail at times, but I will get back up again by God’s great mercy and grace.

I will dream big dreams and pursue great goals, but only with His help and guidance.

I know God has a plan for me.

I know God has a plan for you.

And I’m sick of looking back at my life and wanting to… here’s come the word of the day again…

Cringe.

Lastly, I want you to join me on this journey.  If you’re as tired of mediocrity as I am, come alongside.  Drop me a line.  E-mail me at bouvillediarist@gmail.com.  Commengt on this post.  Share these posts with your friends and loved ones, and ask them to do the same.

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I hope to hear from you soon!!

All in God’s grace,

Chris