Strength in Joy

Joy is central to the Christian experience. A close cousin to peace, joy is that sense of calm happiness that bears witness to the world of the wonders of faith in Christ. Regardless of the circumstances we face in life, we can still exude joy. Through pain, through sorrow, through hardship, through disappointment, through illness, through troubles of any and all kinds, we have hope in God – The One Who is sovereign over all.

Our joy is not rooted in our difficulties, but in God our Father Who leads us through life’s situations. In the LORD, we have hope over all circumstances. We have His wonderful promises to grasp onto tightly. 

God is sovereign over everything.  He is sovereign over our enemies. He is sovereign over our infirmities, He is sovereign over our families. He is sovereign over our work. He is sovereign our needs. He is the Only One we can trust entirely and completely in all things.

And God our Father loves us. He cares for us. He is with us through every storm. He never abandons us. He is always with us.

“The joy of the LORD is your strength” (Nehemiah 8:20b, ESV).  Whatever’s going on, we can embrace God’s joy and find our strength in Him. When we’re filled with fear or grief or a troubled mind, we’re weakened by our troubles. When we choose to embrace God’s joy in faith, we are strengthened, finding our lives are actually filled with hope because of our Father’s love, grace, mercy, peace, strength, sovereignty, holiness, faithfulness, joy… 

Paul reminds us in Philippians 4:4-7 (ESV), “Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

We rejoice in the LORD Our Father. Nothing is beyond His ability. And, when others see us waiting patiently and joyfully on God, we are an effective witness for Jesus. When we choose joy over anxiety, our faith grows. And we are able to inspire and help others to find strength in God as well – finding joy for their lives and helping others do the same.

Rest in Jesus. Trust in God. Walk in His joy. You are loved far more than you can imagine!

Monkey Brain Sufferers – We Have Hope!

Affe mit Schädel (Ape with Skull) by Hugo Rheinholdt (c. 1893). By Jfderry – Own work, CC BY 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=31511541

“…whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.” – Phillipians 4:9-9 (ESV)

Monkey Brain noun (muhng-kee breyn)

  1. A form of brain damage caused by repeated overstimulation of the cerebellum, stemming from a gluttonous mental diet of news and opinions (mostly opinions misrepresented as news) and pop culture. 
  2. An epithet for one who is exhibiting symptoms of Monkey Brain.

Monkey Brain (toxicus cerebrum primatus) strikes when one’s mind is blinded to the Truth by drowning in a constant sea of media, flooding in from the eyes and ears, filling the cranial cavity of the infected victim with a stream of “woke” and “fake news” misinformation, cloaked as fact. Common symptoms include confusion, loss of common sense, inability to see God at work in this world and overly opinionated expressions of political and social views (presented as absolute fact, with or without solid proof).

We all suffer from Monkey Brain to one degree or another.  We are all affected by our culture, by what we see, hear, feel, think and perceive.  When what we believe is based on these factors and not the Truth as defined in God’s Word, our perception is really deception.

Monkey Brain sufferers often display behaviors caused by a focus on subjects that are either false or unimportant.

If any of the below questions concern you deeply, you may be suffering from Monkey Brain:

  • What does Taylor Swift think about the state of the world today? 
  • Are UFOs real? 
  • What does Taylor Swift think about UFOs? Has she ever flown in one?
  • Why are protesters blocking I-94 to speak out against the use of cotton fill to stuff teddy bears? 
  • What does Taylor Swift think about the use of cotton fill to stuff teddy bears? 
  • Should I start Christmas shopping this early?
  • What does Taylor Swift want for Christmas?
  • Are plant-based meat substitutions the way to go? 
  • What does Taylor Swift think about plant-based meat substitutes? 
  • What about Donald Trump? I bet he doesn’t eat plant-based meat substitutes.
  • Will Elon Musk run the world someday?
  • Will Taylor Swift run the world someday? 
  • Who will cause the end of the world?  Iran?  Israel?  China?  North Korea?  Taylor Swift?
  • What does Taylor Swift think about the end of the world?
  • Is Putin real or AI generated?
  • Is Taylor Swift real or AI generated?
  • Is truth real or AI generated?
  • What is real?
  • What is true?

If you, like me, suffer from Monkey Brain, there is hope.  There is a way to know the Truth, the reality of our situation, the outcome of the “unknown”, the source of – and antidote to – all our confusion and anxiety and worry.

The remedy for Monkey Brain is as follows:

  1. Read the Bible.
  2. Pray.
  3. Study the Bible.
  4. Pray.
  5. Seek first the kingdom of God – His will, His ways, His character, His sovereignty over all.
  6. Pray.
  7. Surround yourself with fellow believers who will help you stay focused on Jesus.
  8. Pray.
  9. Mind what you feed your mind – what you watch, what you read, what you listen to, what you accept.
  10. Pray.
  11. Stop believing everything as reported.  Not all of it true.  Not all of it is important.  Reject the toxic and embrace the Truth of God as revealed in the Bible.
  12. Pray.

Do not be deceived (Matthew 24:3-5, Mark 13:5, Luke 2:1-8, 1 Corinthians 6:9-11 and 15:33, 2 Thessalonians 2:3, Colossians 2:8, Galatians 6:3-7, Ephesians 5:6, Romans 1:26- 27, James 1:13-22, 2 Timothy 3:13, 1 John 1:8 and 4:1, Revelation 12:9).  Recognize that the insanity swirling around us is nothing more than “wars and rumors of wars. See that you are not alarmed, for this must take place, but the end is not yet. For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom, and there will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are but the beginning of the birth pains” (Matthew 24:6-8, ESV).

And know this.  The media feeds us information, some factual, much not.  God doesn’t call us to know everything.  We aren’t meant to understand it all.  We are created to believe, to walk in faith in God through Jesus Christ.  What we see on this earth doesn’t have to make sense. God’s way and the ways of this world are in opposition. 

Am I suggesting we stick our heads in the sand, ignoring what’s going on? Absolutely not. All I’m saying is trust God in all that’s going on. Recognize He is sovereign over all – even those who do not accept Him as Lord and Savior. Don’t believe everything you hear, read and see. If it isn’t the gospel, don’t take it as such.

Now, I need to grab my Bible for my Monkey Brain therapy.

NOTE: I do not have anything against Taylor Swift. You can insert the name of any celebrity and it will have the same result. God is still sovereign. 

Resolutions (or, Mann Tracht, Un Gott Lacht)

German half-hour sand glass, first quarter of the 16th century, bronze-gilt and silver-gilt, Metropolitan Museum of Art, CC0, via Wikimedia Commons

“The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.”

Proverbs 16:9 (ESV)

“Mann Tracht, Un Gott Lacht.” Or, “Man Plans, and God Laughs.”

Old Yiddish saying

2023 is speeding toward its inevitable conclusion, and our thoughts now turn to hopes and prayers for the soon-dawning new year. 

Plans and resolutions.

So much we want to accomplish.

I have a list of goals – not “resolutions”, a term that makes me a bit squeamish because it doesn’t carry the same weight of intentionality as “goals” – for the new twelve months. 

I’m going to need to start right away on 1 January 2024. 

  • Create a Daily Bible Reading Plan that will deliver maximum impact for effective spiritual growth. (Or is that effective impact for maximum spiritual growth. Or effectively im;pactful to the max.)
  • Create and launch The Bouville Diary podcast to reach millions of listeners with the message of Christ’s love, grace and peace.
  • Write a best seller (ECPA, New York Times and Bono Indiana Picayune charts) that will also deliver maximum impact for effective spiritual growth for millions of people. (Look out, Max Lucado.)
  • Have above best seller published in 52 countries, translated into a minimum of 52 languages (including Budukh, spoken by only about 200 people in Azerbaijan, according to UNESCO).
  • Travel the world by boat (I don’t like flying), visiting all seven continents and personally seeing to it every nation has heard the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
  • Broker peace in the Middle East and Asia. (To be done concurrent with aforementioned evangelical world boat tour.)
  • End hatred, racism, drug addiction, homelessness, cancer and all other nefarious diseases, broken families, greed, corruption…
  • Take away all anxiety and worry, filling the void with God’s peace.

That’s just a partial list. I left out the more personal items (weight loss, reading a book a day, training myself to eat beets without gagging, etc.). I also didn’t mention bringing an end to reboots of old TV sitcoms, but that seems fairly insignificant in the grand scheme of things.

I’m being a bit facetious here. Ok, maybe more than a bit. My intention is neither to belittle these very important subjects, nor to offend anyone. My point is, simply, resolutions and goals are great. But if we make our plans without the Lord’s direction, we strategize in vain.

And while these lofty goals are noble and good (except perhaps the sitcom reboot thing), I believe my efforts would be far better focused on the below:

  • 37 And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. 38 This is the great and first commandment. 39 And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. 40 On these two commandments depend all the Law and the Prophets.” – Matthew 22:37-40 (ESV)
  • 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. – Matthew 6:33 (ESV)
  • Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. – Philippians 4:4-8 (ESV)
  • Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord, and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones. – Proverbs 3:5-8 (ESV)

Instead of grand plans and resolutions, perhaps simply following and focusing on Jesus is a far better path. He will lead us to opportunities to bless. He will take us where we need to be if we follow His path in faith. Our call is to love God, love others and share the Gospel. If we are lead by God’s love with pure motives, we will succeed in playing our part in God’s plans.

Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established (Proverbs 16:3, ESV).

I Hear the Train A-Comin’

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
    and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
    and he will make straight your paths.
Be not wise in your own eyes;
    fear the Lord, and turn away from evil.
It will be healing to your flesh
    and refreshment to your bones.

Proverbs 3:5-8 (ESV)

I think this picture is a fair representation of the world today. Don’t you?

Life can feel so out of control.

Troubles all around the world (Israel, Gaza, Lebanon, Ukraine, Russia, China, Taiwan, Iran, etc. etc.),

AI.

Political shenanigans (on all sides – no finger pointing).

Violence on the rise.

People divided by racism, by religion, by politics, by economic status, by social status…

Noisy protests, counterprotests, protests against protests…

A Frasier reboot without Niles Crane.

The world has become such a scary place that one major online news outlet has a special link to stories about “extreme weather”.

Doom and gloom abound.

But, read this: we have no reason to fear.

Let me repeat: we have no reason to fear.

Why is that? Only God is sovereign.

What does that mean? It means God is in full control, and we are not.

It means “our God is in the heavens; he does all that he pleases” (Psalm 115:3, ESV).

It means “the heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps” (Proverbs 16:9, ESV).

It means God knows what He’s doing, and who are we to question His wisdom and ways. Romans 9 lays this out for us.

We are not in control. And that’s good news because it appears the engineer has jumped off the screaming disaster-bound locomotive.

We are not omniscient. We don’t know all the facts, nor do we know what’s going to happen in five seconds, let alone tomorrow. Nor are we omnipotent. We cannot thwart God’s will. Likewise, we are not omnipresent. We are bound by physical limitations, whereas God sees everything, everywhere, at all times past, present and future, laid out before Him. He is absolutely boundless and beyond our comprehension.

God is in control. We need to trust Him in all things great and small, personal and worldwide, for everything is in His hands. No matter how dire circumstances may seem. No matter how hopeless it all appears.

And God loves us. He offers us forgiveness, strength, peace, grace, hope, direction… everything we need. Don’t trust in what you feel. Don’t let fear, anxiety or worry grab hold of you. Pray with expectancy, thanksgiving and faith. Trust in God. Focus on Him and know it’s all OK.

Out On Open Water

The gospels give us two different accounts of Jesus on the Sea of Galilee. In the first (Matthew 8:23-27), the disciples are in the boat with Jesus when a raging storm comes up, threatening their lives. As the disciples are panicking, Jesus is in the back of the boat, sound asleep. When they wake Jesus, He gently rebukes them (“O ye of little faith”), then commands the storm to stop.

Which it did.

Immediately.

In the second (Matthew 14:22-33), Jesus sends the twelve out on the sea without Him. Again, the winds blow up, threatening to capsize the boat with the disciples aboard. Out on the choppy swells they sea what they think is a ghost. The “apparition” is no apparition at all.

It’s Jesus.

But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, “It is a ghost!” and they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.”

And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. 

Matthew 14:26-32 (ESV)

Notice a few things:

  1. In both instances Jesus was in the storm with the disciples.
  2. In both instances Jesus recued the disciples.
  3. In the first instance, Jesus led them into the storm, and stopped the storm immediately.
  4. In the second instance, Jesus bid Peter to walk through the storm. Peter was fine as long as he kept his gaze on the Lord. But, when he took his eyes off Jesus, Peter began to drown. When he cried out “Lord, save me!” Jesus did just that. Immediately.
  5. In the first instance, Jesus spoke to the disciples, saying “O you of little faith”. When He rescued Peter, Jesus repeated the phrase to him. And then, just as before, He calmed the storm. This should have served as a reminder to Peter about the first storm Jesus saw them through – emboldening their faith even more.

There is a lot to glean from these two passages in Matthew. But the point I’m making here is the simple / obvious one: we’re going to have troubles in our life. Circumstances are sometimes going to be ugly. Even when you’re far away from the relative safety of the shore, the LORD is in the boat with you. The wind and waves are under His control. Whether He stops the storm immediately or calls us to walk through it, He is there.

There is no reason to fear any storm in life. The LORD is in the boat with us. Focus on Jesus, not the troubles. Stay the course with God and know it’s all OK. It doesn’t matter how your bad your situation may seem, it’s all in God’s hands. Rest in that knowledge. Praise God for Who He is. And keep your eyes on God.

Philippian Keys

If you’ve been reading my articles and short devotionals over the years, you probably know my favorite place to go when I’m facing anxiety and worry is Philippians 4.

A great tool to use when studying Scripture is to look at the key words in the passage. Let’s look at Philippians 4:4-9 [NIV] and focus on the key words in this passage. My prayer is that this blesses us, and helps us get rid of the dreadful worries and fears that plague us, and put our minds on track where they should be: faithfully praising God through our storms, firmly rooted in Jesus Christ and remembering the LORD is sovereign over all – even the things that cause us anxiety and worry.

Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. – When are we to rejoice in the Lord? Always! Not “always unless…” Not once we feel like it. Not when circumstances improve. When we rejoice in the LORD, we put our focus on Him, not our problems. We recognize He is in control, not us. We realize He has everything in His hands. Would the apostle Paul instruct us to rejoice always – even repeating the point to emphasize it – if there was a reason to worry instead?

Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; – I love that word “reasonableness”. Other versions of the Bible translate the Greek term as “gentleness”. I believe the message here is this: don’t freak out. Be calm in the storm. Think of Jesus on the boat with the disciples as this massive storm rages around them (Matthew 8:23-27). The twelve are in a panic, sure they’re going to drown. Jesus is in the back of the boat, sleeping peacefully. When they awaken Jesus in their fright, He says, “O ye of little faith…” And calms the storm. When Jesus got in the boat with the disciples, do you suppose He knew the storm would take place? He led them right into it! Sometimes He does the same with us. Never ever will you face a situation where God looks at it and says, “Hmm… I didn’t see that coming.” When facing a storm, we need to go to the LORD first – in faith – and let others see our faith in God. No matter what’s going on, God is with you. Just like Jesus was in the boat with the twelve.

do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. – What should we fear? What is there to be anxious about? Nothing. We are to not worry about anything. Instead we are to take everything to God in prayer, trusting Him, knowing He is in the boat with us. And – a huge key to this – go to Him with thanksgiving. We can do that when we surrender our lives to the LORD, knowing deep down there is nothing too hard for Him, that He loves us with a depth we cannot measure. We go where God leads us, but we don’t always know where God leads us. Or why. But we must trust that He has a purpose for us – to grow us, strengthen us, help us. This is not merely for our own sake, but for those He places in our lives as well. Once we let go of the worries and fears over our situations, and trust that God is in control, we can experience God’s peace. We don’t need to figure it out. It’s “beyond understanding”. It may make no earthly sense to be at peace with the struggles we’re facing. But that’s why it’s God’s peace He’s giving us. It is based on our sure hope in the Lord’s goodness, grace, mercy and love. As Jesus was preparing His disciples for His coming crucifixion, He said to them, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid” (John 14:27, ESV).

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you. – We need to focus our thoughts on the things of God, on His Word, on His promises. Not on our problems. Not on our worries. But on our Heavenly Father, on Jesus Christ, on the Holy Spirit. Jesus modeled grace under extreme pressure for us. And the Bible repeatedly tells us not to be anxious.

I hope this has blessed you deeply. If I can pray for you, please let me know. And if would please continue praying for me, I would appreciate it. It isn’t easy to let go of anxiety and give it all to God. But we have to learn to let our faith grow through our trials. :In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world” (John 16:33b, ESV).

Rest For Your Soul

The struggle with anxiety and depression has been a real battle lately. Stress triggers, life changes, life issues, life in general, all can work to drag a person down in the mire of negativity and worry and burn out. I share this not to elicit sympathy, but to inspire hope. Hope is there for all of us.

Let mem share some truth with you. Ready?

(Jesus said:) “28 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

– Matthew 11:28-30 (ESV)

All who labor and are heavy burdened are those of us who are worried or stressed, weighed down by the troubles of life.

Those who are hurting.

Those who mourn.

Those who are confused.

Those who are at a loss about where to turn.

Those who are at the end of their tether.

Those facing a broken relationship.

Those who hunger for something more.

Those who feel abandoned, rejected, unwanted, unneeded, unloved…

Those who have a need they cannot seem to fill.

Those who feel helpless.

Those who worry about tomorrow.

Those who can’t get out of bed to face today.

Those who constantly relive the shame or guilt or pain of yesterday.

Those who feel alone.

Those who feel hopeless.

Please know this: you are not hopeless. You are not beyond help. You have Jesus.

Yes, you’ve heard it before. But where is God when we cry out? Where is He in the silence? Where is He when we hurt and ache and cannot sense His presence?

He is right here. He is with you. And when we’re in the midst of the fog of depression, it’s even harder to hear from Him. The key, I believe, is simple. Not necessarily easy, but simple.

It’s about letting go. It’s about trusting God and taking Jesus at His Word. It’s about going to the LORD in faith and crying out, letting go of the hurt and the fear and the anxious troubles and the despair and hardship. It’s about choosing to believe what we cannot necessarily see with our own eyes.

Theer comes a point where we have to simply admit we cannot carry this burden any longer. We need to seek the LORD, trust Him with every aspect of our lives, and wait for Him.

No, it isn’t easy. We’re often tempted with the worrying thoughts and wearying sadness that comes from our troubles and hardships and sorrows. Instead of latching on to the troubling notions that plague our untrustworthy emotions, remember what Paul said:

35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? 36 As it is written,

“For your sake we are being killed all the day long;
    we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.”

37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

– Romans 8:35-39 (ESV)

Despite what our emotionds may be telling us, the LORD is with us always. Don’t give up. Don’t lose heart. Don’t flame out. Trust God. And when you feel you can’t hang on much longer, cry out to Jesus and trust Him. And just keep trusting Him – despite how circumstances may appear. God has you. He knows us better than we know ourselves. Trust Him.

Jelly For The… uh… “King”

 But he gives more grace. Therefore it says, “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.” Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

– James 4:6-8 (ESV)

Trying to rule the world around me is hard. I’m tired of kicking myself when I miss the mark. I’m worn out with struggling when life around me is not going the way I expect. I’m exhausted by striving for results that continue to elude me.

It occurs to me that, perhaps – just perhaps – what’s made me so tired isn’t the circumstances I face, but the over-sized gargantuan ego I drag around with me. As a perfectionist control freak who absolutely has to call the shots in every area of life, the leap of recognition that all these thoughts are rooted in a swollen ego is a bitter pill to swallow.

But swallow the pill I must.

As a child, I hated taking pills. I mean gag-me-with-a-children’s-aspirin dislike for pills. Thankfully, my grandmother had the answer: grape jelly. A pill hidden in a spoonful of grape jelly was much easier to take. Far less gagging, far more cooperation from 8-year-old me. (By the way, I’m sure any flavor of jelly will work. In the mid 1970’s, I didn’t realize jelly was made from any other fruit. And orange marmalade was definitely no substitute!)

As an adult, I no longer use the grape jelly method of pill swallowing.

But I wish I did.

I could excuse all my attempted sovereignty by saying I have “trust issues”. After all, who knows me better than me? Who knows what’s best for me better than me? Looking back at my life, I can truly the say the answer to these questions is not “me”. Indeed, every good thing to happen to me – every time something bad was made good – I was not the one responsible for the results.

It’s always been God.

And yet, I still struggle with double-minded doubts and try to take back control of issues I’ve already “given” to the LORD. Who am I to ever think He’s too slow to move, too busy to care, etc.?

The simple truth is this:

“Seek the Lord while he may be found;
    call upon him while he is near;
let the wicked forsake his way,
    and the unrighteous man his thoughts;
let him return to the Lord, that he may have compassion on him,
    and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon.
For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.

– Isaiah 55:6-9 (ESV) (bold typeface added for emphasis)

Refusing to let God be sovereign is a problem. For one, wow… who am I to every think God could be anything less than absolutely sovereign over all? Who am I to question His decisions, His timing, His ways? Who am I to think everything in life needs to make sense to my limited cognitive capacity? Who am I to feel everything has to go my way?

It’s time to stop gagging and take my medicine. It’s time to just surrender. It’s time to see the LORD for Who He is and who i am.

It’s time to abdicate my phony “throne” and accept that God is in control, not me. It’s time to rest in His goodness, love and grace and drop this sin of self-centered egotism. The LORD wants me to give up all control to Him. He doesn’t even want me to be an advisor.

Man… this whole surrendering thing is tough! But I have no real control anyway. And God’s ways are infinitely better than mine.

I need to surrender to Jesus in all areas of my life and rest my ego. That’s the only way to bring down the swelling.

Merry Christmas!

From we Courtneys to each of you, we pray for a most blessed Christmas and a wonderful New Year!

In those days a decree went out from Caesar Augustus that all the world should be registered. This was the first registration when Quirinius was governor of Syria. And all went to be registered, each to his own town. And Joseph also went up from Galilee, from the town of Nazareth, to Judea, to the city of David, which is called Bethlehem, because he was of the house and lineage of David, to be registered with Mary, his betrothed, who was with child. And while they were there, the time came for her to give birth. And she gave birth to her firstborn son and wrapped him in swaddling cloths and laid him in a manger, because there was no place for them in the inn.

And in the same region there were shepherds out in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night. And an angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were filled with great fear. 10 And the angel said to them, “Fear not, for behold, I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. 11 For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord. 12 And this will be a sign for you: you will find a baby wrapped in swaddling cloths and lying in a manger.” 13 And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God and saying,

14 “Glory to God in the highest,
    and on earth peace among those with whom he is pleased!”

15 When the angels went away from them into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let us go over to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has made known to us.” 16 And they went with haste and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby lying in a manger. 17 And when they saw it, they made known the saying that had been told them concerning this child. 18 And all who heard it wondered at what the shepherds told them. 19 But Mary treasured up all these things, pondering them in her heart. 20 And the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all they had heard and seen, as it had been told them. – Luke 2:1-20 (ESV)

The Fourth Watch

22 Immediately he made the disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowds. 23 And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up on the mountain by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, 24 but the boat by this time was a long way from the land, beaten by the waves, for the wind was against them. 25 And in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. 26 But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, “It is a ghost!” and they cried out in fear. 27 But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.”

28 And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” 29 He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” 31 Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” 32 And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. 33 And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”

– Matthew 14:22-33 (ESV)

These guys were tired. They had to be. The day just ended had been a long one. They had just learned John the Baptist had been beheaded at Herod’s command. They had participated in the miraculous feeding of five thousand hungry seekers (probably more lime 10-15,000 because the women and children weren’t counted, just the men).

Now the disciples find themselves on a boat trip Jesus Himself had commanded them to take. They were far from the shore. It’s the middle of the night (between 3:00-6:00am).

And a fierce storm hits.

We’ve all been there. We’ve had a rough day – to say the least. We’re stressed out. Life has had its way with us. And, in the middle of the night – WHAM! – the anxious thoughts begin. The “what ifs” begin swirling in our minds, crashing over our thoughts like ways on a stormy size. We feel like our boat is about to capsize.

When we’re in the depths of anxiety, it can be hard to see Jesus. Even when He is right before us, our eyes are so transfixed on the storm raging around us that we see nothing else. The disciples had, only a few hours before, played an active role in Jesus feeding a crowd that would fill a small stadium with a mere five loaves of flat bread and two fish. Still, they missed the Lord right in front of them.

But look at Peter. He recognized the voice of the Lord. He stepped out into the storm to get to Jesus.

And he nearly drowned when he took his eyes off Christ and onto the storm. Peter cried out in fear to Jesus.

And what did Jesus do? He saved Peter.

Immediately.

Despite the storm, Peter – and all the disciples – were safe in Jesus. They couldn’t see Him. All they could see was the danger all around them. Jesus was right there in the middle of the maelstrom, and they couldn’t see Him. These guys walked with Jesus, witnessed so many miracles, heard His wisdom and teaching, and still couldn’t recognize Him on the rough, choppy, wind churned waters. The Lord was the last place they expected to see anyone: walking not only on water, but storm swelled, wind-driven waters.

The lessons to glean here are many. But it’s three in the morning. The fourth watch. So let’s keep it simple for our anxious, stressed out, tired brains. The fact of the matter is we don’t know what we don’t know. We perceive trouble. We worry about the future. We get to a point where the stresses of life build up and crash around us to the point where we can’t tell which way is up anymore. The shore – safety – feels a long way off.

But, despite the appearance of our circumstances, Jesus is right there. In the midst of the storm, He is right there. He waves don’t swallow Him up for He is in control of it all. When Jesus says “calm”, the storm calms. And notice the storm didn’t abate as soon as the Lord grabbed Peter, but when He delivered the apostle back to the boat. Jesus carried Peter through the waves, the wind, the lashing rain, the life-threatening danger.

And Jesus does the same for us.

Do not worry. Do not doubt. Remember this: we see the storm. We perceive danger. But we are limited in our cognitive abilities. We don’t know what we don’t know. And what we do know (or think we know) is easily misinterpreted. Thankfully we have Jesus to save us. To carry us through the storm. All we need to do is cry out to God and believe.

Seek Him always. Rejoice in the Lord always! Rest in the Lord despite the rocking of the boat. The LORD is with you always, even when you can’t see Him.